Alimbukay ng Alipato (Gush of Embers) - Photos & Blurbs By Jay Protacio Mendoza
Photographs, Prose, Poetry and All The Stories That Came With Them By: J. Protacio
Friday, April 15, 2011
Sunday, September 20, 2009
And if your gift is knowing when you will die... will you use it?
Then out of no where, he told me, "Kung sabagay, kahit mapahamak ako, ayos lang... Mamamatay na ako eh.. malapit na...." (Well anyway, it doesn't matter if I get into trouble... I'm going to die... very soon...)
After what he said registered in my mind... I felt a surge of coldness inside me... My head went blank and there was an empty and blunt throb in my heart... I walked backwards... slowly... away from him... and rode off in my car... I even forgot to ask his name.. (As I always take my time to talk to people in the streets whom I take pictures of...)
After a week or saw I learned his name from a common acquaintance... His name is Fedencio Aquino... or "Mang Piding" to those who are close to him...About four days ago, our common acquaintance told me Mang Piding died of a heart attack last September 8, 2009 during the peak of a typhoon.. while the streets where flooded...
His name: Fedencio Aquino... a brother, a father, a grandfather, a friend to many, and a husband... He always had this peculiar grin in his face and he was always happy... and most of all he had this gift of knowing when he will die...
Sunday, September 6, 2009
Rainy Day Blues

I titled this post-processed photo "And Suffer As I Have" for no reason.
Well, post processing stock photos is a fun way for a Street Photography addict to let the rainy days pass...
Monday, August 3, 2009
On My (Kind of) Street Photography
With all due respect to the other specialties (like landscape, model shots, wedding, seascape, nature, etc...), I love street photography for the following reasons:
1. Because of its challenges. - For me, there is no other type of photography (except photo journalism) that gives you the challenge of walking up to total strangers on the streets and ask to take their pictures.. specially for street portraits. Well ofcourse there are instances when you have to take candid shots of street scenes but you can do that inside your car or a taxi cab. The real challenge comes when you need to come close to your subject in the streets and more often than not, the street can be a really hostile place... more often than not the people are not that friendly...
2. Because here, you need to establish a certain connection with people on the streets and even at some point, you need to establish a certain connection with the streets themselves. - I walk up to potantial subjects... talk to them before or after I take their pictures and try to listen to their stories... I never like taking pictures and not know or atleast not have a clue as to what lives they have... Sometimes I think street photography is more of a way for me to get in touch with people rather than getting in touch with them as a way for me to do street photography.
3. Because in street photography, the drama is your basis for composition. - In the streets, everything happens so fast. Very often, you wouldn't have the time to technically prepare for a shot (not enough time to set up your lights, to place each object or subject within the rule of thirds and not enough time to direct your subjects' pose), and on one hand, you have capture a moment while it is happening so fast. So the aesthetics would greatly rely on immediate drama of your shot and those pictures that really touch the emotions are the most effective.
4. Because in street photography not only do I learn how to take pictures of people and scenes... I also learn many things about life.
Friday, July 31, 2009
Para sa Huling Pag Lubog ng Araw

At natapos na
ang hindi pa nasimulan.
Huling sulyap sa mga
anino
na muli't muli'y tatawid
sa atin.
Bagamat ang bukas ay ganito
pa rin ang dadatnan natin.
Mahalaga ay nandito ako
sa kanyang pagpanaw.
Ngayon ko sya nakuha,
sa panulukan ng kanyang ganda...
dahil hindi na kami
magkakilala bukas.
O dili kaya'y...
Hindi sya magpakita sa atin.
(I guess this is my ode to the sun... the only light bringer from the east... I've always had this idea that the sun we see each day is a different one... and we are strangers to each sun that rises... or perhaps a day will come when it will cease to rise... so each sunset could be our last...)
Larawan at Salita: Jay Protacio Mendoza
Lugar: Mangrove Trail, Subic Bay Freeport Zone
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
MAMAMATAY NA AKO, MALAPIT NA...
After taking my son to school the other day, I drove around the city's main metro area for 10 minutes. I saw this old man sitting on a curve, in front of an old abandoned building. I parked on the side of the road to take his picture and as i did, he asked me, "Mapapahamak ba ako dahil sa litrato na yan?" Then I answered, "Hindi po 'tay, libangan ko lang po ito."
Then while I was already taking his pictures, he said to me, "Kung sabagay, kahit mapahamak ako, ayos lang... mamamatay na rin naman ako... malapit na...."
It took a while before his words sank in and when it did, I felt a blank and blunt throb in my heart... I guess I was shocked with waht he said... I walked slowly away from him and rode my car... I even forgot to ask his name.
Maybe I'll see him again... and ask him what his name is... maybe...
Thursday, July 9, 2009
Loosing sight of things

In the blur you seek,
is a recollection.
Your eyes have shut
yet you find them all in your heart.
And we have less to flaunt
than you.
You have seen more
than we
and in our life time...
we remain blind...
Your sight has ceased
because you have seen
it all.
Photo by: Jay Protacio M.
Location: West Bajac Bajac Market, Olongapo City
Thursday, July 2, 2009
When Summer Is Gone
Well, not just my usual street stroll shots and gate-crashed wedding shoots but also some bonus photo ops. My wife and I went to Pundakit in San Antonio, Zambales with my dear friend Atty. Ronald Gavino and a couple of other friends. The beach was spectacular and the people were so nice. We stayed in Ronald's beach house.... ( We drank.. we ate.. we swam.. we drank.. and ate again...)
The next day was even better because we took a boat ride to the famous Capones Island. That was last March.
Last April, my photo group, the flickristasindios or "indios" as we fondly called our group went to Pundakit again not for a boat ride to Capones Island but for a ride to Anawangin Cove (Also in San Antonio, Zambales). During that group trip, I had the chance to shoot landscapes that were different from my other landscapes and I even had the chance to shoot models... (hehehehehe) Now, I don't think for shooting models since I am more comfortable with shooting street portraits and street scenes... But still it was a good learning experience for me...
But enough with the blabber. Time for photos.
I will miss summer.. that's for sure.
The First Pundakit Trip:
Boat Ride To Capones Island:

Capones Shoreline:

By now you know who this is:

Indios Anawangin Trip 2009:
Anawangin Cove:

Anawangin Waves (Long Exposure):

Model Shoot@ wood area Anawangin:
Models Jill & Juju

Juju by the Rocks:

Model Shot by the woods, Anawangin:
Model: Eureka

Eureka Pose

Eureka and the Waves

I told you, I'm going to miss this summer



